If You Want...But Don't Forget Me!

          FROM A PLACE ONE THOUGHT AWAY,

          YOUR LITTLE LOST SOUL,

          P.O.BOX MY FAV NUMBERS,

          ANYWHERE AND EVERYWHERE,

          TODAY, A POSSIBLE ECLIPSE 🤷. 

Dear Asari Sango,

There is that low buzz and rum, and I can feel the waves of the music move through me; and the line is going, "Don't forget me, I beg... I remember you said..." I am set against the water. Floating. Waiting. Patiently. In the River Leea. It is gaining momentum, building up to a great crescendo. And then everything stills and I see you watching me. Again.

Hey. Hi. Hello. Your little soul here. It is a special day isn't it? I am sure. I am not one for fine speeches, as you are well aware. It has been forever since we spoke. I have missed you.  

Are you my muse? Because you inspire me. At times 🤓 You gave me counsel to listen to my instincts. I do not think I am at peace. I have to unburden what's weighing me down. I feel like I'm sinking. Shadows are falling and lonely voices are talking to me. Now I'm a goner. I have thought about this. I have.  Not all scars mark the skin. Some are deep down, forever etched into memory that the soul remembers. I remember. 

Call me when your heart remembers. Do you remember?  That feeling was like swallowing a jaggered little pill. You don't want it but you have to. You did that. You did that to me. When is the time you empathise with me? When huh? Only when you want to understand Your feelings, Your experiences, Your pain, Your suffering, Your loss. There are some things you can never avoid. They'll always be with you. In your pursuit, never lose sight of the little treasures you already have. Like me, your little lost soul. And what for? A fantasy? Two seconds in cloud 9? Only for a promise that cannot be kept. 

Have they never taught you about inverse proportionality? You are worth your salt so you must know. When one decreases, the other must increase. That's the case isn't it? I have tried to come to terms with it but I can't. That's how it goes. The sense ain't sensing. 

Shhhh Asari. Today you are not allowed to speak. It's my day. Your face is stoic but your eyes tell me a different story. At what cost do you bury your heart and soul? Me?  At what cost?  I know you are still trying to find the NN to your C. It is easy to understand, hard to endure. 

You told me to look into the eyes. I am looking into yours and they beg me for a solution. Surprise surprise. I do not have any. One thing remains for sure. You can never separate us. Whatever you feel I will feel. Though indirectly. But do not neglect me. Do not forget me. I am you as much as you are me. I am your essence. And through me, we are reborn again and again. 

If you want to jump off the rails, take me with you. If you want to go on a rampage, I got your back. If you want to go silent, let's be silent together. If you want to chase NN, let's do it together. If you want......but don't forget me! 

Do not give up yet, success may be just in your next step. I will not insult you with my baseless conjecture, I'll save it for later 😂 Beautiful dreamer, you will not dance on your own like a little woodland fairy. I will be there. By your side. Always. 

I told you I am not one for fine speeches. My words may not be as adequate as yours but I do hope my pen does communicate. And if it ends up dying by drying, I'll know it was for a good cause. 

YOURS BEYOND,

THE CONFINES OF ETERNITY,

LITTLE LOST SOUL. 

*As will always be a pleasure.