Side by Side

"To flutter like a bird, to move on the ice, like floating in the air, with Him, Side by F**king Side"~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Beautiful Dreamer🎕🥀⚘⚘

You invited the darkness, and said, "how do you do?" You skid on the dry ice, with the weight of the world on your shoulders. Side by Side. Yesterday you did the Lutz, and today you've landed the double axel. You are proud of yourself. You remember you had to pay for your costume on your own: Your pride never allowing you to take handouts. You knew it was expensive, and now all your savings are gone. 

He is your saving grace, your answered prayers. He embodies everything you have ever wished for and more. When he told you he would give you the world, he said it from the heart. You love the curve of his lips, and when he kisses you, you melt. Not pout, not perfectly round, a dash of red on the lower lip, full and supple, but just the perfect size to give off sensual vibes of a good kisser and shape to deliver on that promise. His rugged good looks and alluring body commanded your attention. Just like he does on the rink. All Eyes On Him. 

He held you while you were dancing; Side by Side; and your instructor said you'd dance to "Romeo and Juliet." You were afraid of the flip and the double and triple toe loops. And all this while he was right there, with his hand at the small of your back, encouraging you. He promised to never let you fall, that he would lift you up in the air for all the world to see the Gem you are. He says he will always be by your Side.

They called you a person who appears once in a generation. You never believe them. All your life you have tried to fit in, and all your life you have failed. What then is the solution that you found for yourself? Shutting people out. Never giving anyone a chance to get too close. 

You were both standing at the Side of the small gate to the ice skating rink. Your heart was weary, heavy. Last Sunday, The clergyman sent you peace, the one he said comes from Above. You're still wondering cause you never received this peace. He told you to let go, but your stomach ulcers won't relent, he tells you to forgive, but you can't even bring yourself to shed a tear. He spreads his arms out and calls to you, saying nothing matters but today. It is at this point that he remembers a story...

"A woman and her husband were to celebrate their 50th Anniversary this week, however, she died the week before, at her husband's Side. There is so much darkness in the hearts of men, and we have so many who mourn for her loss- her husband, whom she loved dearly (as if she had a choice), her children, including the estranged one, family and friends who will remember her fondly." He tells everyone to give thanks for the little they have, and for the years that they have been given. 

The point is made, you should never take anything for granted. It seems that point flew just above your head; you ask yourself the purpose of this "gift" you have been given, this Thing you never asked for, and why you are required to pay to live...You pray to god your soul to keep, and to help you believe the words of this Mortal(as if he was ordained to receive from the heavens👀) You will sit and wait for your breakthrough, for it comes, doesn't it? 

We are sorry, we digress... Him, he saw you, and you let him. It was in the sparkle of his piercing blue eyes, the perfect curve of nose, his full brows, and the sound of his voice. He is a Cardiologist, so he knows a thing or two about the heart😂 One of the reasons why you became a skater, is cause you don't know how to do anything else. No, he is an exception. He knows how to do it all- he is very skillful⛸𝩚😛.

I find it peculiar that people say the words- "no offence," thinking it will absolve them of the fucked up shit they're gonna say next. Well, No offence, you Lily Livered Bastard! There is a reason why you are afraid of the Axel. Facts- it is the only jump requiring a skater to lift off while skating forward, and it actually contains an extra-half revolution. He told you you would work on all of them together, side by side, in symmetry and at the same rate of speed. He will surely pull you out of the darkness you invited in. 

He told you he would make you move with fluidity and precision, executing the spins and the multiple jumps with ease. He told you that the Work of Art was you, that it was impossible not to be impressed by your raw talent. Your movements, he said, were imbued with a sense of strength. It's the way he says all these things. He believes it. So why don't you?  

He stares dead straight into your eyes, and says he will say them until you believe every single word. And from what he has shown you,(from both on and off the ice👻) You know he delivers on his word. He pulls you to his side, opens the small gate, and pushes you into the rink. You close your eyes, and let  your body, and His, Take Control. 

*Insert pleasantry here*

A.S.